Scared

Recently went to my doctor and after relating to him how I was feeling he order a sonagram on my stomach.While not finding anything concerning my tummy,it did find a mass on my right kidney.The sonagram lead to a mri and that detected 2 masses on my kidney.My doctor calls me and tells me could be this or that or the c word...u know cancer.I AM SCARED.He said mri every 3 months...but I want a biopsy done...I WANT TO KNOW NOW!Perhaps it is one of the other things he mentioned but truthfully I do not remember...I lost my train of thought after he sais cancer.I see him on the eighth(September)I am staying upbeat till i know...my kids are a little nuts about it so I gotta stay strong for them.But I have to say in side I am going a little nuts.I keep imaging not seeing them again....of no kisses from my grandkids...my husband.I don't care about if it comes to it losing my hair or whatever.I just do not want them to see me sick...I am a strong person....but I am writing this to get it out....somewhere is here...I am not making sense now...